Giving Up
Hi. This is a difficult and serious post to compose.
I've lived in Beijing for about four months. I work a full-time job and I go to a Chinese tutor three nights a week for one hour and also supplement my learning with audio tapes.
I'm really, really concerned that I'm not "getting it." My problem is, I don't know how to judge myself in relation to other people. Like I know some words, but am I saying them right? I told the taxi driver last night I wanted to go to Sanlintun and he couldn't understand me. I went to get a haircut on Sunday and when we walked in I said "ni hao" to the staff. The man who was supposed to cut my hair said something to my friend that made her really mad. She had to pull out her translator to let me know that he had "imitated; mocked; made fun of" my speaking. I literally wanted to cry.
I'm just worried that I don't have enough time to devote to this. I would really like to learn. I honestly would. The thing I'm dreading the most if I decide to stop is the anger that will come from my Chinese friends. They all want me to succeed. What if I can't?
I mean, some of them have been studying English for 20+ years and still don't feel like they fully "get" it. I'm 31, American, and just now embarking on one of the world's most difficult languages. Is it possible I can ever learn it or be understood?
While I've been here for about 4 months, I've only done the tutoring for about 6 weeks. Can anyone advise me on where I should "be" at this point? By the way, my tutor is wonderful. None of this is his fault.
Thanks for any advice you can offer. Sigh....




Watson
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I think 4 months is nothing, and you shouldn't base your Chinese on whether a taxi driver can understand you. I have been studying on/off for the last 8 years, and I often get things repeated back to me by taxi drivers. You have to understand that China is a HUGE country with many accents, and sometimes people don't understand you. I often throw out my Taiwanese accent to taxi drivers just to confuse them for fun
Also, don't feel pressure from your Chinese friends......study at your own pace
ancicamila
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Oh, you poor thing.
Don't get so discouraged.
People can be very mean sometimes, and Chinese people are often very direct at all the wrong times.
But, look at it this way, a lot of people will start laughing at you even if you don't say anything at all, that's casue you're foreigner and they think that you're something to laugh at, also if one of them says ''haro'' to you it will provide such entertainment to the whole crowd.
Start getting used to it. No cure for that one I'm afraid.
What irritates me most is when they laugh after I say something and I ask them if I said something wrong they say:''No, no, not at all''.
Cheer up
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summertime
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I think you are probably where you should be after 4 months and that you are tired from working and studying plus getting used to a new place and different culture.
I've been learning Chinese twice a week for over a year and often wonder if it is worth continuing as I don't seem to "get it." I thought I was good at languages before I came here and I feel like a complete dope in my lesson sometimes and that it's really hard to get the lesson to "stick."
It gets incredibly frustrating but the point does come when someone talks to you and you actually understand what they say.
I have also become more tolerant of people who don't speak English well.
malmar
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I've been here 10 yrs
NEE HAO!
badr
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a bit of positive reinforcement goes a long way! unfortunately, in Beijing, so many laowais speak Chinese that it's taken for granted to some locals (in some cases).
My Chinese is not crap but I always feel that it is less than adequate in Beijing.
However, as soon as I leave this city and go somewhere where laowais are the exception, not the norm, the locals shower my crappy chinese with praise and it makes me feel quite a bit better about it... nice little confidence boost!
Also, keep in mind that not everyone in Beijing speaks standard Mandarin and a lot of people here are from other places in China... in those cases, a lot of times, the problem is not what you said or the tone you used. It's more psychosomatic... just look at the number of times locals repeat things when talking to each other...
keep up the good work... it'll come slowly but surely
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Gdarmstong
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there are some slangs with my jiaxianghua(language spoken at my hometown) when i first came to Beijing, some schoolmates imitated the way i speak, they do it for fun when we are together, of course i didnt feel comfortable when they did that, but i know they aint vile. sometime people do that to entertain themselves, the problem is not yours, no need to feel embarrassed.
keep learnning and good luck
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mh
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Right. To calibrate how much progress you *should* get, talk to and listen to a usual Chinese college student speaking English. Is his/her English broken and horrible to you? That is what they get after 6-10 years of English classes. You should expect about the same rate of progress in learning Chinese as a English speaker. It's that hard.
Of course you could argue that you are learning a foreign language where it is spoken while the Chinese students are not. Let's say you get yourself a factor of five boost because of that. Then you realize you shouldn't expect to speak Chinese better than most Chinese college student speak English even if you have studied for 1-2 years.
Glenderful
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I really appreciate all the information, advice, and encouragement that everyone offered. I feel like I'm not alone now. I'll just keep trying!
WorkingMom
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ben....
seabreeze98
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... egg.
Four months are very short. No need to fret about your 'poor' Chinese. Especially as you're learning it like part-time, a few hours per week.
Don't give up. You'll get better as time goes.
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Hutong_Harry
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I went through a thing with a taxi driver a couple of days ago.
shi men
shi mur
... bloody Beijinghua!!!
East gate.
A$$hole wouldn't take me until I said it 'right'.
He's lucky it was a hot day and he had the air-con on full.
If you build a man a fire, he's warm for a day. If you set a man on fire, he's warm for the rest of his life.
Hutong_Harry
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And of course when learning English, you also don't need to learn how to sing meaning you CAN be understood if you talk like Stephen Hawkings voice synthesizer.
Mess up one tone here and they give you a blank stare.
If you build a man a fire, he's warm for a day. If you set a man on fire, he's warm for the rest of his life.
seabreeze98
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HH Did you mean West gate? Ximen?
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kongjian
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pot
kettle
black
kongjian
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glender
Don't even sweat it. When I first came to China and was studying at BLCU 5 years ago it was a serious blow to my self esteem. I have always had a propensity for languages, Chinese completly devastated me.
However I didn't quit.
You learn from your mistakes more from your succeses. I know that is cliche, truth most times is. Just think of all the Chinese who study English for years and years but make no progress because they are afraid to make mistakes, afraid of being laughed at.
Screw that.
And if they laugh at you, just speak more. Maybe you can exact some revenge by giving them a headache.
I could go on but wouldn't want to be accused of being negative.
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Hutong_Harry
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Yeah ... my pinyin sucks.
I was saying the first bit correct ... it's the second bit he had problems with.
You know that peculiar Beijing thing of adding an 'ar' to the end like some sort of demented pirate.
Which reminds me ... time for grog.
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magicjade
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pls forget the haircut boy and his stupid mock. u know what? a lot of Chinese cant pronounce madarine Chinese correctly because there are so many dialects in China.however,dont worry about it.
if i am allowed i have to say the place u want to go is not "sanlintun",it's "sanlitun".maybe it's not the problem of ur pronunciation but that someone had told u a wrong name or u remembered the name in a wrong way beacuse of carelessness.maybe the drive is new and not familiar with the famous place of Beijing.in fact, even though u pronounce"sanlitun"far far away from the correct tones,an experienced driver can catch what u want to be.so, u see, it's his problem!then, why punish yourself for other person's mistake??
pls do hold on and i believe u can get a lot of fun.be brave to practise it with Chinese people and u must ask ur tutor to be serious in correcting ur pronunciation,it's very important to get a good pronunciation at the very beginning.wish u a good time in studying our language
Jimmyjangles
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I think a lot of language learners expect a kind of constant steady progress...but in my experience I seem to get spurts of progress and then periods where nothing new sticks for a while...very frustating but the next spurt WILL come though!
When you don't feel you're getting the new stuff you're actually consolidating what you already know!
Jia you!
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magicjade
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michaelj
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I know some very intelligent people who have started Mandarin while working and quit. The reason is never that they are not smart enough and that they cannot get it, the reason is that they are too tired from working all the time. If you can keep your energy level up and try and weave the Chinese learning into your daily routine as much as possible, you will eventually get it.
Think of language learning as a long upward curve with a series of plateaus. Getting past the plateaus, where it doesn't seem like you're improving at all, is the hardest part. But you WILL realize when you've taken a step forward, and it's a wonderful feeling.
Age doesn't really matter after 18 or so, from what I've read. The 'easy' language learning takes place as children, after that, it's hard for everyone.
加油!
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hongmei
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What does 'jia you' mean?
Glenderful
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I am so heartened by all the stories and advice that everyone has shared.
I will do as Mao said and work hard everyday!!
I don't care if it takes me 20 years: I will LEARN Mandarin! And then I will go back to the barber shop and cuss the man out. Ha ha.
thunder54
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Don't get upset by what some idiot at the hair dresser says. Most people that have cut my hair in beijing couldn't speak mandarin properly.
It's a shame but chinese people regularly mock the way others speak if they don't sound exactly like them. I have seen my wife laugh and mock wait staff in front of her family and friends if they speak with an accent.
She even has a go at me if i say something in-correctly, saying I spoke like someone from guangdong or hebei.
It's just there narrow mindedness they think if some one sounds different to them that they say are uneducated or lower class, It's just a shame we foreigners who can't sound like them get caught up in there social prejudice.
Also you said at one point you wanted to cry being 31yrs old the days of crying should be 29yrs behind you. You have to toughen up or you will be constantly crying when you can understand what people are saying about you.
I was at the visa office and the woman processing my application turned to the woman next to her and said look how fat this foreigner is she was referring to me i was sitting directly in front of her face to face. I admit i was fat i have since lost 20kg but still she could wait till i am out of ear shot.
jamhnxx
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word.
chinese language isnt just language for china but also a language where most east aisan languages originated, korean, japanese, u name it.
no wonder is a b*tch to learn, keep up all the good work and dont let hairdresser spoil ur fun
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michaelj
Re: Giving Up
Jia you (加油) literally means "add oil/fuel" and is used as a phrase of encouragement. Much like Americans and Europeans might shout slogans of encouragement to sports teams, Chinese use this as an all-purpose phrase of general encouragement and support.
I just think of it as "Go for it!"
"All cynicism masks a failure to cope...to despise all effort is the greatest effort of all." - John Fowles
"Reason is treason." - Kasabian
revoming
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psychologically, all people are afraid of smthing different from them.
implicitly, one way to ease the panic i is mimicry.
So pls do ignore them
and, yes, dont judge your Chinese level on if the taxi driver could understand
you.
Jia you
It is easy to criticize.
Racist are those who keep using the phrase all the
time.
Pirschjaeger
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Me getting into a taxi in Beijing.
driver; chu naaaaarrr?
me; fu xing men
driver; naaaarrrr?
me; fu......xing.......men
driver with mouth open, blank stare;.................
me; fu xing meeeeeeerrrrr
driver; ah, dui, dui, wo zhi dao
Beijingers tend to be very inflexible. I find Tianjiners to be much more friendlier and flexible.
@OP, are you sure your recent problems don't have anything to do with culture shock? 4 months is around the time you get the second one. Take a weeks break and relax. Then when you go back to studying, it might be better.
theman
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@ OP.
If you have the time, study more than 3 hours a week with a tutor. You don't need an expensive tutor, jsut one with a good accent.
I have an excellent pronunciation when speaking chinese. My vocabulary needs some work, but in most conversations on the phone, unless they use difficult words, people think I'm chinese.
Even with this, I often walk up to a waiter in a restaurant, or a seller in a store, and ask for some thing. Sometimes, the answer is "duibuqi, wo bu hui yingwen" (sorry, I can;t speak english), or, in english, they will say "sorry, I dont understand". This is when I'm speaking chinese. They jsut expect me to speak english because I'm white, so they dont understand.
If I'm mad I ask in chinese "Ni hui shuo zhongwen ma?" (Do you speak chinese?) That usually makes them know what language im speaking.
Also embarasses them.
One time in a restaurant I was ordering in chinese to a waitress, and another waiter comes up and says to her "meishi, wo ye bu dong yingwen" (dont worry about it, I dont speak english either) The woman understood what I was saying, the man hadn't heard me speaking chinese. Just expected I couldnt. Really pissed me off.
Anyways, I recommend you focus on pronunciation instead of vocabulary at the beginning, it will help you a lot later on. Know your pinyin by heart.
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mymandarine
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Hi all,I am a Mandarine teacher,from my teahing experience, i think pronunciation is very important, even though you had mastered the grammar well, you could organize sentences well, it's still hard to make yourself understood if the pronunciation is confusing. so my suggestion is that try to pronunce as clear as possible, don't be afraid of speaking slowly,at least it makes ppl know what you are saying, isn't it?
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Pirschjaeger
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When I first started learning Chinese I found it extremely frustrating that no one could understand me while I worked so hard on pronunciation. I'd pronounce each word carefully, including the tones. One day a Chinese woman told me to stop using the tones and speak faster. Since then everyone tells me my pronunciation is good and everyone understands me.
Different strokes for different folks.